Have you ever had so many thoughts running through your brain at once it's like there's a really bad football game being played?  

Thinking about my children & grandchildren. Thinking about a couple of my friends that I'm worried about.  Thinking about all the stuff going on @ work, not necessarily bad stuff, but just a lot of stuff that I need to get done. Thinking about things I need to get done here at home.

What really bothers me is that I put it all in God's hands and then I take it out again, like somehow I can't trust Him to get the job done?  I'm trying to balance what I know I need to do to get some of these things done with trusting God to take care of the end result, like I KNOW He can!  I know He can because He's proven Himself over & over & over again.  Very recently I asked only for one thing, He went over & above what I asked for!  

So what's the problem with just doing what I need to do & then letting go?  Is there something going on in the spiritual atmosphere I'm not aware of?  I am reminded of what I told my friend last night about just being His (God's) child and let Him be Abba!  I know it sounds a little simplistic, but I really believe that's how Abba, Papa God, wants us to be with Him.  That child like, trusting nature between a little girl & her daddy.  Even now as I write this, I find tears welling up in my eyes.  I love my children, & grandchildren, so very much, sometimes my heart aches I miss them so much when they aren't around.   Still, I can't begin to love my children & grandchildren even close to how much God loves me.  I want to make Him proud of me, but most of all I just want to be His little girl & let Him take care of me, trust Him to take care of me, to provide, protect & love me as only my Abba can.   

Am I over simplifying this?  Maybe?  Does it mean I can just sit back & do nothing?  Which is better, over thinking something or over simplifying something?   So for the rest of the night I think I will relax & just chill.  Spend some time with God after I finish tidying the house & fixing the toilet. (flush handle broke) & tomorrow, after church, I will get busy with my homework (2 different projects for work).  Tonight I just want to feel my Abba's presence, just relax with Him & enjoy His presence in whatever I do.  

& not think!