HOMESICK

on Thursday, driving back from watching my granddaughter cheerlead the Jr High football game, the drive seem to take much longer than it should have.  As if someone had literally stretched the road out an extra 15 miles or more.  it seemed surreal.  I've driven that road I don't know how many hundreds of times.  and it seemed to just go on and on and on and on and on!  It was as if I had never driven that road ever before.  I don't know how to even explain the experience adequately, except to say, it was surreal.  by the time I got home I was so exhausted, yet I could not sleep because the eexperience had shaken me so much!  I knew I was supposed to learn something from it, but what?
I've had other similar experiences, standing outside my apartment looking at the traffic go by, and it all seems so unfamiliar, as though I were a stranger just passing through and stopping for the night & waking the next morning to more unfamiliar traffic passing by on the road in front of me.  other times it's been just a moment of going into a building, or talking to someone, and it just seems strange as though I have never done it before and yet I know I have.
so what was the lesson learned?  it took me awhile to put it all together.  (first of all checking to make sure I hadn't lost my mind, hahaha).  but then I realized, the reason why these insistences seem to be increasing in frequency is because I am becoming more and more aware of how this earth is only a temporary home.  how many times I've written in my journal or told a friend how I seem to be more homesick for Heaven all the time.
NO, I have not lost my mind, and I believe that God is not done teaching me a lesson in all of this.
part of it is, because I stress so much over details and getting everything just right, at work, with my family, with everything.  I believe God is trying to show me how temporary all this is, and stop worrying about it and let Him take care of the details, let Him take care of it all.
what I continually hear from God, from my Abba, is to let His light shine in & through me by just being joyfull in His presence, no matter where I am or what I'm doing, even when I'm by myself.   stop worrying so much. &,  it's ok to be homesick for Heaven, it's a good thing.