I've been fighting His plans long enough.

Mom has gone home to Nebraska.  Miss her already! 

But, as they say "meanwhile, back at the ranch"

So much has been happening the last few months.  Ebola, Ferguson, the illegal actions of our 'emperor' regarding illegal immigrants, Israel, our economy woes, etc etc etc.   I feel like so many others have covered those topics and then some.

But I miss my writing!!!  Since I don't want to tackle the topics so many others already have covered, what to write about?   I've been thinking about this for a few days now. 

There's already so much negativity in our world.  And while I stand firmly on the side of what's right, pro-choice, the amendments & our constitution.  I need more than that.  I need to focus on what I CAN do with my life, my words, my choices. 

So that's what I want to write about.  I want my words, my choices, my life to make a positive difference in the world around me.  I want to make people laugh and smile and be stronger than they think they are.  I was fortunate to have a few people in my life that helped me that way.  There have been choices I made that I'm not proud of, things that happened to me, things that other people did to me that caused negative things to happen.  I want to use those experiences to help others survive their similar experiences.  I think that's why I wanted to write stories, including the one I've been working on for 2 years, and why I've been having a hard time finishing it.  I wasn't sure how much of my self, my story, I wanted to share.  But now I know, if I'm going to have to share it all.  Maybe not all of it in this one story.  But it's definitely time to move into action. 

You might be wondering why, what has changed?  Well, partly it was the visit with Mom, 4 weeks wasn't long enough.  Time is short and very valuable.  At the same time I finally found the job I'd been wanting.  Less pay, but also less stress.  This job was exactly what I'd been praying for, except for the $$.  I'm trusting that since Elohim secured this job for me, He'll also be taking care of my $$!  It was not difficult at all to leave my supervisor position at the company I worked at for 9 years.    My stress level has already improved so much and I'm feeling healthier, sleeping better, working on the eating better part... (LOL).... 

Anyway, my point is, my turning point, or pivot point as some would call it, happened 4 weeks ago today when I was offered the new job.  I had to make an important decision in just a couple days time.  But I had no problem making that decision.  After 2 interviews, meeting the office staff and given a brief overview of what I'd be doing, I made the choice in less than 8 hours.   Because it was almost exactly what I'd been praying for I knew my answer was yes.  And I'm glad that was my answer.   I just finished my 2nd week at my new job and I love it!!!!  

That being said, it's time for me to get with the program. 

According to the scriptures,  **http://bible.com/316/jer.29.11-13.isr98 ‘For I know the plans I am planning for you,’ declares יהוה, ‘plans of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and an expectancy. ‘Then you shall call on Me, and shall come and pray to Me, and I shall listen to you. ‘And you shall seek Me, and shall find Me , when you search for Me with all your heart .
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What does this mean to me?  It means I've been fighting His plans long enough.  My turning point has shown me I have not been living my life, I've been surviving, and sometimes just barely surviving.  Why?  Because I was fighting His plans for me.  I don't believe that Elohim caused the negative things to happen in my life, but I do believe that He has "plans of peace, a future and an expectancy (hope)" for me, for my life.   I will not let my past be wasted, but will use it, as much as I'm able, to help others, and in the mean time, live the life Elohim has planned for me.   

That doesn't mean I'm ignoring the world around me, just that I'm going to try to change my little corner of the world with POSITIVITY.   Of course, I might be speaking out on some issues from time to time, but POSITIVITY will be my focus as much as possible.   It's possible not everyone will like what I have to say, but that's ok, they have as much right to their opinion as I have a right to my freedom of speech and my opinions. 


For now, all I have left to say is good night, be blessed, sweet dreams and

SHABBAT SHALOM!

I can say no.

As a result of my recent pivot point, I've decided to start focusing more on the positive, on what I CAN do.  And I've decided on the first thing I can do.  

I can say no.

I can say no to junk food.

I can say no to spending my "free time" on activities I don't enjoy or are not productive in a positive way. 

I can say no to thinking negative thoughts.  

I can say no to spending time with negative people.

I can say no to ignoring things that bother me, and fix them!

I realize "saying no" sounds a bit on the negative side, but when you give yourself permission to say no, it can be very liberating and very positive!

I'm giving myself permission, I can say no.

 

PIVOT POINTS AND POSITIVITY

First, let me apologize. I've been out of touch, I haven't read articles or written anything for a couple of weeks, but with good reason. My mother is visiting from Nebraska, we just celebrated her 80th birthday yesterday. When she isn't staying with me, I've been at work. When I'm home, she's here (most of the time) and I want to spend my time visiting with her because I don't know when she'll get to Texas again, and I don't know when I'll get to Nebraska again. Spending time with Mom is just to important right now. But for tonight and the next couple of nights, she's at my son's house.
Why am I apologizing for wanting to spend time with Mom? Because writing is important to me, It helps me to unwind, to vocalize my opinions, to share what's on my heart, and hopefully more often share what Elohim has put on my heart. I enjoy reading the articles the rest of you write and apologize I'm behind on my reading! We learn when we share, when we share we learn. As I recently shared with a friend "the more I learn, the more I want to learn more" or something like that. Anyway, you get my drift I hope.
After listening to Glenn Beck Monday night, and then reading another article about a "pivot point", my heart knew it was time for me to write, at least a few words. You see, while my pivot point did not come about by physical trauma, I have also recently faced my own pivot point. Here's my "story", short version:
I have recently gone through a "pivot point" and because of it I am starting a new job this coming Monday, This job pays a little less than I really would like, definitely less than where I work now, for at least 2 more days. Why. My stress level was so high I was gaining weight, couldn't sleep, etc, etc, all because of the nonsense of the current job, constant schedule changes, micromanaging from a corporation bag of ceo's that have never done the job I'm doing, along with the other supervisors, so their ideas just don't work like they think they should. If I have to, I'll take a small part time job at a $$ store or something like that. But I just couldn't stay where I was. I prayed and when I happened upon this job by "accident" (thank you Holy Spirit), I prayed some more for Elohim to either open the door or shut the door. There were so many things that fell into place so easily. I knew it was time. I am trusting Elohim to supply my finances, one way or another. I'm almost 60 (in just about 4 weeks) and I just can't deal with such high stress any more. Granted, skinny finances might be another kind of stress, but I'm not going to worry, I'm going to plan and budget, get rid of stuff I don't need, and trust Elohim to supply my needs.
I had already made this decision, several months ago, but only accepted a job 2 weeks ago. Before Glenn Beck made his announcement, told his story, or before Jonathon told his. Knowing that others were making changes only strengthened my resolve to follow through on my decision. (Yes, I was having some doubts and some people at work were telling me I'd be back, or I'd be bored, or bla bla bla). I was even having heart palpitations last week as some tried to change my mind about this change.
One of the things I've noticed happening in my spirit over the last few weeks (during the testing and interviews for the new job and the last 2 weeks after I gave my notice at the current job), I have been changing how I think, getting rid of negativity. It's difficult some days, as I see so much YUCK happening in our country and around the world, but I am determined to focus on the positive! I'm not sticking my head in the sand. I'm fully aware of all the negative, and I will probably still be quite vocal about it some days. But on a minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day basis, I need to focus on positivity! What I CAN do, not what I can't do. In fact I'm starting a list of what i CAN do. Not that I have to do the things on the list, but things I CAN do, thinks I am ABLE to do. I hope to share some of those items on my list, but not tonight & not everything, but some.
For now I'm going to call it a night.
Blessings & Shalom!

whatever little pieces of peace, joy, contentment we find, we should savour every moment!

  There seems to be so much going on in the world today, Ebola, wars, rumors of wars, subtle and not so subtle threats from other nations, politics, economics, I don't think I can keep up with it all.   

   But today, I'm feeling a wee bit selfish.  My focus is not on the craziness of the world or our nation or "the church", but on myself and my family.  I had something personal (sorry can't say what just yet, Tuesday or Wednesday I can tell) and wonderful happen on Friday.  Also my mother is staying with me until at least Monday evening.  We've had a fun few days.  I worried about my house not being clean enough.  She doesn't seem to care.  I worried about not be "entertaining" enough.  She doesn't seem to care.  We had some fun on Friday, just tool'n around town while we waited for my news.  When we finally got the small town I live in, we went to my son's house first, visited there a short time, then I took her home to not my not so clean house.  We've had a nice calm visit.  (Which IS an accomplishment in and of itself.)  

  So pardon me if I feel a little selfish and enjoying my "moment in the sun", if you will, and if you won't, oh well.  I'm going to enjoy it anyway!  (the "if you won't is for certain people who are always ready to point fingers of guilt, shame, etc, no matter what.   I'm hoping no one reading this is one of those.  But if they are, I hope you find better days.  

  Which brings me to my point.  Why SHOULD we feel guilty when we are fortunate enough to have our Father Creator bless us?  I'm saying we shouldn't feel guilty.   I've worked hard and been very blessed, concerning my good news that I can't tell you about yet.  And I've bit my tongue many times to keep the peace with several different people for the last week (she arrived last weekend), you know how families are.......

  No, I think with all the turmoil around us, in the world, in our nation(s), in our lives, whatever little pieces of peace, joy, contentment we find, we should savour every moment!  And so I shall.  I got online just long enough to write this, because it was stirring in my spirit.  I owe some very fine writers/bloggers some heavy duty reading after my mother leaves, and I apologize for not being on top of my reading as much as usual, but Mom will be 80 in 10 days, and when she goes back to Nebraska in 21 days, I don't know for sure when I'll see her again.  So, thank you for your patience and understanding.  I will get back to my writing and reading (no 'rithmatic', hahaha), after she goes to stay with my son.   

Blessings and smiles to all!


Shalom!