"I AM NOT HERE TO FIGHT, I AM HERE TO WIN!"

So much going on inside my brain, in my spirit......

I'm not sure I even know where to begin.   The last 2 weeks have been *super stressful* to say the least.  But this weekend was **SUPER SUPERNATURALLY STRESS RELIEVING!!**  what did I do?  nothing much that would appear out of the normal.  I slept, I cleaned house, but most importantly, I spent time with my grandchildren!!  I heard Eloheim's voice speak to me so many times this weekend.  Actually, He never stopped speaking, I was just so busy & so stressed, it was difficult for me to hear Him.  

But thanks to our study on Wednesday & listening to His voice, & even what was shared in *church* this morning & then what my friend shared with me over iced tea this afternoon.   

Soooooo, back to the subject of *strength*.  

Our *little* study group is a special treasure, to me, & to Yahweh.  and trust me, though we might be *little* in number, there is NOTHING LITTLE about us!  I find strength in our studies, I find strength in our fellowship.
I also find strength in Yahweh's words to me.  Trust Me, lean on Me, listen to Me, spend time with Me.  Study My word, no really, STUDY MY WORD, in depth and as you have never studied before!  

There was much I heard over the last 2 weeks, but 2 things stuck with me the most, one was that last part, "Study My word, no really, STUDY MY WORD, in depth and as you have never studied before"!  it coincided with what we studied Wednesday evening about the "Paleo-Hebrew" alphabet.  I'm so excited to get started.  the scriptures that were shared from Daniel (hiding the scriptures) & John (revealing the scriptures) & the parable about the woman who lost 1 coin, spoke volumes to my spirit.  I know, I need to share more information, and I will, just not tonight.  

The other thing that stuck with me was what I heard at church this morning:  "I AM NOT HERE TO FIGHT, I AM HERE TO WIN!!"  


I REPEAT, 
"I AM NOT HERE TO FIGHT, I AM HERE TO WIN!"

Yeshua did not come to earth to fight,
HE CAME TO WIN!  

The other morning, getting ready for work, I found myself in tears, exhaustion had finally taken it's ugly final blow.  As I called out to Eloheim, words of pain, exhaustion on every level, and yes, maybe even a few words of fear (the 'what if' kind);  I at once felt His presence, His peace, His strength & His words, "I already hold your victory in My hand, just REST in Me & watch it happen!!"   I believe those words were confirmed this morning at church, but since that very moment I have felt His peace, His SHALOM PEACE (nothing missing, nothing broken, nothing out of place), abiding within me.  It carried me through work that day, and kept building stronger within me as I enjoyed my weekend.  

I debated whether to share this with anyone, it's so very difficult for me to admit weakness, to anyone; but then more than once, in different ways, I heard Him say, my dreams, the work He is doing in me, is not to be kept to myself, but is to be shared. Shared, if for no other reason than to solidify it in my mind, but also, hopefully, it will strength someone else reading this.  Someone who is finding they are feeling stressed to the maximum & exhausted beyond definition.  

So, it's now 9pm & time for me to put this away for the evening.  Please, be blessed & know you are not alone.  WE are not alone.

Oy Vey!!!!!!

I hope I spelled that right?  I've been putting in 10, 12, and even a couple 14 hour days at work.  I still have a lot I would like to share with everyone, everyone being whoever happens to read this, LOL.  I just got home from a nine hour day at work.  I am so far past exhausted, I can't see straight, seriously!  I hope I can remember what I want to share by the time this weekend gets here.  thank you for your patience! Be blessed y'all !!
SHALOM!!

later that same day.....

I guess I can't count either, it was a 12 hour day, bbbblllllaaaaaacccchhhh

Billy Graham, the alarm for the second coming of the Messiah, my thoughts on this

agreed, we are entering the end times.  I believe it may get much much much worse before Yeshua returns again.  would I prefer Messiah return quickly, of course!  but we must prepare for and warn others of the possibility of some very dark days approaching. 
as the days darken, I pray that as we go closer to Him, HIS light will shine brighter in and through us!!

http://endtimeheadlines.wordpress.com/2013/10/20/billy-graham-sounds-alarm-for-2nd-coming/

My apologies

I'm really sorry I don't have a lot have time to write tonight, last week was extremely busy at work, and this weekend I was playing catch up with housekeeping and time with Eloheim!!!  I have much in my spirit to share, but no time left for this evening, not the kind of time I need to really sort out my thoughts and say things the way He wants me to say them.  I will post as soon as possible, hopefully tomorrow night or Tuesday night.  but no promises.  My Abba has given me so much to dwell on!!  thank you Charlie and Lora for allowing me to assist with putting together your tabernacle and sharing in the blessing!

SHALOM TO ALL!!!

His Strength, not mine!

Judges 16:17
Finally, Samson shared his secret with her "My hair has never been cut," he confessed, "for I was dedicated to God as a Nazirite from birth. If my head were shaved, my strength would leave me, and I would become as weak as anyone else."

Like Samson, I have been trying to find my own strength, not necessarily from my hair, hahaha, but trying to find my strength from my own self, out of who I am on my own.  

Guess what, it didn't work for Samson, and it hasn't worked for me either.  

For weeks, more likely months, I found myself coming home from work, worn out, exhausted, done.   I used my tiredness as an excuse to sit and do nothing but the absolute minimum until it was time for bed.  Then in the morning I'd get up, get ready for work, still tired & using my rush & tiredness has more excuses to do only the minimum required.  The most important thing I was missing, and I knew it, was my time with God.  I used to spend a lot of time with God, coffee & my journal & Bible in the early morning.  Reading more of His word, or a study of His word in the evening, & many times of prayer during the day.  

But then my life changed, suddenly & drastically.  I was on my own again, physically & financially, after 15 years of marriage.  My emotions were more of relief that it was finally done.  But I found myself without the same luxury  of time.  Still, living on the lakes edge, I found myself with time for walks and talks with God, still journalling, still spending time with Him.  While there were moments of anger & loneliness & confusion.  I would pray & spend time with my Abba & come out on the other side more sure.  I didn't lose my strength.

I don't know where or when it happened, but somewhere along the way, since after I moved from the lake and since after Pastor's Tom & Mary retired, I stopped spending so much time with Abba.  

Then one day recently I realized I was tired of being tired all the time.  At first I only just recognized that fact, I was tired of being tired all the time.  But I did nothing about it.  I just continued on.  I started recognizing that I was tired of more things, tired of living from penny to penny, tired of living from one emotion to the next, tired of living on the edge, waiting for someone else to tell me what else I'd done wrong, tired of feeling alone, tired of not having enough time, enough energy to do anything but just work & come home & go to sleep, & go to work, & come home & go to sleep & go to work.....  I can't & I don't even want to say all the different things I was tired of.  Suffice  it to say, I'm tired.

But, I recognize now that I'm in need of a strength that I can't find on my own.  I tried.  It didn't work.  I tried to find a strength on my own.    One day it just occurred to me, not suddenly like being hit like a truck or anything, it just kind of popped into my head, (thank You Holy Spirit),  I was looking for strength in the wrong place.  I had stopped spending time with Abba, I had stopped seeking Him & I lost my strength.  Oh, I occasionally read a scripture or two.  I went to church on a fairly regular basis.   I wrote in my journal during church and sometimes just because.  I watched Joseph Prince & Joel Osteen & Jesse Duplantis on tv,  but it wasn't the same.  I had no strength & I wasn't really looking for it.  I wasn't really trying.  I just knew I was tired, tired, tired, tired, tired, and using tired as an excuse to not do anything about it, including asking God for help.

But that one moment came more and more often, a reminder of a relationship i once shared with Abba.  A moment here and there, more and more often, that He missed our time together more than I did.  Reminders that I was tired because I wasn't looking for strength, I wasn't  seeking Him.  

I finally decided something had to change, I wasn't sure exactly what, but something had to change.  I changed to a different church, I'd gone to see Jesse Duplantis and saw some folks from the church I'd been going to and the church where Pastors Tom & Mary had taught.  They were all going to the same church who was hosting Mr Duplantis.  So, I started going to that church, & I started going more often.  I started seeking God's wisdom.  I started hearing His voice again.  I understand He has been here all along, but what I didn't understand is that using my tiredness as an excuse to just sit and do nothing & not even talk to God or seek Him was self-defeating.  what I knew somewhere deep inside but was trying to ignore for whatever reason, was that the more time I would spend with God, the more strength I would have.  So as I've started seeking scriptures that speak of strength, they affirm what I was hearing from God.  It's His presence, His joy, His Peace that will help me to find His strength.  I am weak, but He is strong.

Before you judge me to quickly, please understand, I never stopped loving Him, trusting Him.  He never stopped providing His Grace & Favour.  I know of many times, all I had to do was ask & He provided.  It's just that I wasn't asking the right question when it came to strength.  And now, as I again seek Him, His Wisdom, His Peace, His Joy, His strength, His promises, I find myself not as tired any more.  It may take some time to get back to where I was, but I know that I will not only get back to where I was, but that He, my Abba, will get me to an even better place, He has more and better planned for me.  And He needs me strong to follow Him more closely.  It's amazing, He is also providing the strength I need to follow Him.   

As we deal daily with the world's chaos, both nationally and personally, we will all need HIS strength.  Below is a short list of scriptures on strength.  By no means is it a complete list.  I encourage you to seek out what you need from His word.  As I am.  

(I apologize if I was 'babbling' a wee bit, it's late and I should have been in bed at least an hour ago, or more, but I had pc issues & was determined to post this!)



Exodus 15:2
The Lord is my strength and my song;  He has given me victory.  this is my God, and I will praise him-my father's God, and I will exalt him!  

Deuteronomy 9:29  But they are Your people and Your special possession, who You brought out of Egypt by Your great strength and powerful arm.

1Chronicles 16:11  Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek Him.

Job 9:35  Then I could speak to Him without fear, but I cannot do that in my own strength.

Psalms 18:1
I love You, Lord; You are my strength.

Psalms 18:29
In Your strength I can crush an army; with my God I can scale any wall. 

Psalms 18:32
God arms me with strength, and He makes my way perfect.  


Psalms 29:11
The Lord gives His people strength the Lord blesses them with peace.


Deuteronomy 6:5
And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul and all your strength.




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God is speaking!

WONDERFUL BIBLE STUDY TONIGHT!   

My friends & I met at Hastings HardBack Cafe this evening.  VERY interesting conversation about the current state of the nation, how world & national events relate to spiritual current & coming events.  We also discussed & found out we've all been noticing different atmospheric changes, on a spiritual level.  

I can't get into all right now, time for some sleep, but let's suffice it to say, God is moving, God is speaking, the most important thing we need to do is LISTEN!!!

THANK YOU JUAN, LORA & STACI FOR YOUR AWESOME INPUT IN A GREAT STUDY TIME!!!  

:-D

   

What I saw horrified me...................

Just a quick diversion from talking about *strength*.  Mostly because I need to get busy doing dishes & because I haven't put everything together yet about what & how I want to present my notes on *strength*.  

No, tonight I want to talk about one thing & one thing only.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH PARENTS TODAY????

I was at wally world this afternoon to pick up just a few items and a prescription.   What I saw horrified me, made me want to 'chuck', made me want to grab these parents & shake them!  

It was a young couple, late 20's, early 30's, with their probably 6 year old daughter, 3 or 4 year old boy & a baby.  Before you tell me to mind my own business.  I WAS minding my own business!  But when you dress your little boy like a little gangster & your 6 year old daughter is dressed to make $200 a night on the strip, it's a little difficult NOT to notice!!!   

So when I say "Oh My God!"  I'm not using Abba's name in vain, I truly mean "Oh My God, what is wrong with these people?"  What can they possibly be thinking to dress their children like that?  Both the mother & father were dressed more or less casual.  t-shirt & jeans for both, her's was maybe a little tighter than what I would call a natural fit, but oh well, she's a grown woman & can make her own decisions on how she wants other men looking at her.  Her daughter was no where near old enough to decide for herself that it was ok for her to be gawked at like a piece of meat!  

I know the answer before I ask it; The world is so accustomed to walking in the darkness they don't even see they are walking into a trap, a pit, a gigantic ocean of lies, deceit, hatred, loathing, etc, & the enemy wants to drown them in it.  They don't even understand they are walking in darkness and there is a Light, who wants nothing more than to save them & love them & dispel the darkness that is smothering them.  

But I still have to ask the question, "Oh My God, what is wrong with these people, how can they be so blind!"  

My heart, my spirit cries at the darkness that surrounds people.  It fills their spirits with a blackness that deafens them to the Love & Peace & Light that Abba wants to fill them with!!  

Please forgive me if I seem judgemental, I don't mean to be, I promise.  But that little girl, & the poor little boy who seems to have his parents thrusting him to the image of how cool it is to be a 'gangster',  & who knows what will become of the baby.   I can't help but want to shake those parents, hug those little babies (even @ 6 that little girl is still a baby!) & pray for all of them.

You know I thought I might feel better, if I voiced my thoughts out loud.  I don't.   In fact, if anything, I feel worse, because I realize there is absolutely nothing I can do except pray for those precious babies to be protected, for the parents to WAKE UP,  & thank God, literally, that my children do not allow my grandchildren to dress & act like that.  Thank you God that my children do their best to teach their children how to be modest & to believe in God & to do what's right, not just what's easy.      

Ok, time to do dishes, but I'm still bothered, still praying.  thanks for letting me "vent".


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*** STRENGTH ***

**** STRENGTH ****

God is really speaking to me about strength the last few days & I've been taking a lot of notes & writing a lot in my journal.  So please forgive me if this evening's message is short.  I've got to put all my notes & thoughts together & this is going to be a very busy week! 

The one thing I've learned over the last few days, that I feel I can share with all of you, is that I don't always have to be strong, or appear to be strong.  At work?  Yes, because that's what's needed from me.  But in my personal life, my spiritual life, it's ok if I am weak and even allow myself to appear weak before others, mostly my friends, my true friends, & maybe some family.  The reason why I can allow myself to be weak & even show my weakness is because He will provide me with His strength. 

""The moment you say, "Lord, I cannot, but You can.  Today, I rest in Your unmerited favor,"  whatever demand that is place upon you disappears into the vast ocean of His abundant supply"",  via Joseph Prince on Facebook 

Once I read this, I knew, I'd been going at this all wrong, I was asking God to give me strength.  I was asking the wrong question.  I first needed to admit, that I am weak, He is strong! & then ask for HIS strength to work in & through me.   I needed to admit to myself, I AM WEAK!  This is so difficult for me.  I don't cry in front of people, I don't share anything with anyone that might make me vulnerable.  Which means, I live in a very lonely fortress.  

That was hard to write, and if you must know, I'm very tempted to erase the whole thing.  But, I'm not going to.  For once, I'm going to allow myself to be just a little bit vulnerable, about being vulnerable????  LOL.  

Please be patient with me, there's a reason for my rambling & I'll post my notes & scriptures as soon as I can.  This is the max for my vulnerability for one night.

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NEW STRENGTH, CONTINUED.....

Isaiah 40: 30-31  (NLT)  (30) Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion  (31) But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint. 

NEW STRENGTH CONTINUED.....

Today I was feeling a little bit overwhelmed, much like the Egyptians when Moses returned to gain their freedom & Pharaoh kept making their tasks increasingly more difficult.   Just when I think I might be catching up, (forget making any headway...LOL)  Granted, I just got this team on Monday & I'm expecting "perfection" from myself, straight out of the chute.  But do they have to keep adding to the burden?????

So, anyway, getting back to finding my NEW STRENGTH.....

Yesterday, when I first looked at this scripture, again, I was thinking of physical strength, energy.  But what about "They will soar high on wings like eagles."  Is that only about physical strength?  I think it's about more, it includes physical strength & energy, but goes beyond.  When I think of soaring like an Eagle, I think of freedom.  Freedom from the fetters of man's rules, selfish expectations, need to control eithers, earthly gravity.  

I think of flying with God's Grace as the wind carrying me through the atmosphere.    

So when the storm clouds gather, Pharaoh tries to strike me down with his lightning of sudden demands & pelting rain of constant & unrealistic expectations or tear me asunder with his tornadic changes of direction for our team, I will cling to God's Grace, His Word & find my strength in His presence & Truth.    (please note my boss is basically a good person and not mean at all, I just feel dumped on sometimes, as though for the amount of pay we are getting is not nearly adequate for the expectations they have of us.  & now that we are on a new campaign with so much to learn it seems that much harder)

Still, I know God opened this door for me, He provided the wisdom & strategies, that got me where I am, He provided the skill & knowledge & talents.  Without Him who knows where I'd be.   When they announced the big change.  All I asked God for was to keep my day time, mon-fri schedule that I'd waited for sooooooo very long (3 years).   He answered my prayer & then some!  He made me the #1 daytime coach & I was the first coach to go through training for this new queue.  It was 100% God.  All I did, all I could do, was trust Him.  I asked Him for what I wanted & trusted Him & He came through, big time.  

Now I'm trusting Him again for NEW STRENGTH!!   including wisdom, strategies, & yes mental, physical, & spiritual energy.   A part of that TRUST also includes TRUSTING HIS WORD, which I can't do unless I am in His Word.  As I strive to dive into His word, saturate my self with His Word, He will provide all I need.  it doesn't mean it might not be difficult from time to time, but it will be so much easier with His Strength & Wisdom.

I also need some sleep!  

Please remember, this is what I'm reading in the scripture, the same scripture might not say anything close to this for you.  but that's ok.  His word is alive!  So He can say what He wants to each of us!  As long as we don't wrongly interpret it to mean something other than what He intended.  

Anyway,

Good night, sweet dreams & God bless!!

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NEW STRENGTH !!

Isaiah 40: 30-31  (NLT)  (30) Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion  (31) But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.

For the last several weeks I've felt more tired than usual.  I told myself it was work, stress from work, too much stuff to do, bla bla bla.  and being so tired all the time  was my excuse for not exorcising, for not spending more time in His Word.  I've read Isaiah 40: 30-31 many times.  Each time it's meant something just a little different to me. 

This time what I found that instead of being tired as an excuse for not getting into His Word, If I would dive into His Word, I mean, really let myself be saturated in His word, TRUST HIS WORD, TRUST HIM, I would find NEW STRENGTH!  Needless to say, I GET IT!    No more excuses!

That's it!  That should be the answer to all our woes & worries.  Be so saturated in His Word that we literally gain NEW STRENGTH!! like taking special vitamins, WOW!!  I have more, but I need some sleep!  Tomorrow!!

GOOD NIGHT, SWEET DREAMS & GOD BLESS!!!