At the moment, I realllly want some chocolate!

Tired, I'm so very tired, and I'm tired of being tired.  I'm tired of not having enough time to relax and enjoy life.  I'm tired of spending every waking hour at work.  Don't get me wrong.  I enjoy helping others, and I'll always try to do my best for those I'm responsible for (& to, to a certain extent).  But sometimes, sometimes I just want to have some time for me?  

I want some time to just sit and read, or write, or walk by the lake, or do absolutely nothing at all, or better yet, just spend some time with my Creator, Yahuah.  Time to just sit and talk to Him,  Nothing special, not asking for anything other than just His presence.  

I want some time to spend in a long luxurious bubble bath with a book that doesn't require me to think to much.  (I don't read those silly unrealistic romance novels, I prefer a good murder mystery, especially if it's a Tamar Myers, in her "Pennsylvania Dutch" and "Den of Antiquities" series she somehow manages to add a wee bit of humor also!

I want some time to not have to rush anywhere, worry about anything, get ready for whatever.  

At the moment, I realllly want some chocolate!  And there's none in the house.  I'm too tired to drive to Sonic for a hot fudge sunday, even though it's right down the road.  Besides, I need to be getting ready for bed so I can get up early for work tomorrow.  See what I mean, always getting ready to do something, go somewhere.  

There is so much happening around the world, and my heart aches for all the innocents that are injured or at or disadvantaged because of all the unrest and removal of human rights by dictators around the world.   My *troubles* seem so petty compared to what others are going through right now.  But still, they are my troubles, and I have to own them.  I was speaking with someone tonight and said something that didn't really register with myself, not even when i was the one saying it.  "I know where I want and need to be, I know how to get there, now I just need to get moving the right direction!"  

In other words, time to stop wanting and start doing, or in some cases, NOT DOING (resting)!!

Wow, I'm so good at imagining it in my head, I just need to take it from imagination to reality.  

But in the mean time, I need some rest, I can barely keep my eyes open, in fact they are slightly crossing as i write this.   

That's it!!  LIGHTS OUT FOR ME.  Everyone be blessed.  

SHALOM!