she'd better learn to smile!

This last week I went to the VA clinic for my first appointment.  I'd never used my VA benefits before because I didn't want to take up space & time for some other veteran more needy than myself.  I was always able to get insurance where I worked.  
4 weeks ago I changed jobs and currently had no insurance and because I took a job with less pay (and much less stress!) I knew it was time for me to look into using my VA benefits. 
So I went out to the clinic, submitted my credentials, was verified and they set up my appointments. 
I of course was a little apprehensive, still am.  But I have to say they were all very nice.  From the front desk receptionist, to the phlebotomist, to the nurse aide & doctor, all very nice.  Of course that says nothing about the quality of care if I were really sick.  This was just a meet and greet appointment.
There were 2 glaring differences between civilian insurance and the VA clinic.  1) I don't get to choose my own doctor. I miss my wonderful doctor already!  2) This female doctor, obviously of a different nationality, was not well kept, (her clothes were not professional, they were wrinkled and dirty on the cuffs of her pants.  She also seemed scared of her own shadow.  Her initial exam consisted of asking me some of the same questions the nurse had asked and asking me to breathe 4 times while she listened to my back with her stethoscope.  No saying aaahhh, no looking in my ears, or checking my neck.  I was determined to get at least one smile from her, and I did, I actually got 2 smiles, weak, but smiles nonetheless.   I didn't care about her being from India (i think?), I'm not wired that way.  But if she's going to be my doctor, she'd better learn to smile!  I want a doctor who is confident and happy, at least when she's at work.  But as long as I use the VA, I get what I get.  
I'm not due to go in for another 6 months, for lab work & follow up, stupid cholesterol & glucose levels! 

We'll see how this goes.  I'll keep you posted.