I had a lot of fun on Saturday watching 2 of my 8 wonderful grandchildren play basketball in a tournament (their teams both won each of their 2 games, I missed my grandson's first game, but I saw the other 3 games). I saw a lot of friends from the little town where I used to live, that I haven't seen for a long time. Then I got to spend a few more hours with my son & his family at their house. We weren't doing anything special, just visiting, and it was so nice.
I wish all my kids & grandkids lived closer!
Today I slept in and after I finally made it out of bed around 8am, I started catching up on housework. I've really just playing at catching up on my housework all day. I just can't get excited about it.
And now you know why I say, 'what do I have to write about?' I think I let myself get so exhausted that even my brain is tired!
One thing has been on my mind though. And it has to do with what happened to me this week. I let myself get so caught up in work, I put everything else 2nd. Yes, everything, relationships, health, myself, even my puppy. Now that's just sad! When I was spending that time on Saturday watching the basketball games & hanging out with my family during & after the games, I realized, my life outside of work has to be given more importance than my time at work. That doesn't mean I don't enjoy my work or that I won't do my best. But I think it's time I start setting different priorities!!!
On the way to the little town where my son and his family live, I turned off the radio and had a nice chat with YaHUah. I mean, we just chatted. I haven't done that in ages. It was so nice, that I did it again on the 30 minute drive home.
So, I've spent today piddling around at cleaning house, budgeting & paying some bills, making a menu & grocery list (well, thinking about the menu/grocery list thing anyway, that will come after I get done with this) and thinking about what I would be writing about.
I'm certain I've written about this before, if not, then I should have. But my life needs to be about LOVE, YaHUah's love, my family's & friend's love, (maybe a future love?), and yes even my puppy. My life needs to be about fun and laughter & health. My life needs to be about my Abba's plan for my life, what He wants to do through me & for me!
I don't know think it will be very easy, I'm so used to pouring myself into my work. And I don't want to jeopardize my job or short change the agents I'm responsible for. But I have to find some balance. I have to keep trying to find a closer relationship with YaHUah, my family, my friends, myself. I have to keep trying to find the fun & health & happiness that He desires for me. I just turned 59 a few weeks ago and you'd think I would have all this figured out a long time ago. But some of us just get so busy, so distracted, with *life events*, we forget to take care of ourselves.
My promise to myself, NOT a new years resolution, just a promise to myself, is to find my balance. I think one of the things that will help me do that is to spend a little time everyday doing NOTHING! I don't mean silence or talking to YaHUah on my way to work (which is a good thing,) or listening to the radio or watching tv. I mean NOTHING. Just sit in my apartment, even if for only 10 minutes, to start with, and just do NOTHING. THEN, spend the next 10 minutes, talking to YaHUah, and 10 more minutes listening to Him, listening to His voice.
Sounds like a great plan, we'll see how well I do. I'll let you know. If anyone has any suggestions, please, feel free to comment. I just really want to have peace in my life for a change. Not a manufactured peace but His Peace, Shalom Peace, nothing missing, nothing broken, nothing out of place. When I was driving to the basketball game and I was talking to YaHUah, just chatting as I would with a friend, I believe I heard in reply that all I need to do is seek Him, seek His heart, His peace, a relationship with Him, quiet time with Him, and He will take care of the rest. He will take care of my relationships, my finances, my job, my health, my ......
Which is why my promise to myself is to spend that 30 minutes as I've described.
So, for the rest of this evening, I'm going to make my supper, write out my menu & grocery list. Get my clothes, lunch and bag ready for work tomorrow. Then do nothing for 10 minutes, talk to Him for 10 minutes, and listen to Him for 10 minutes.
I pray each of you reading this will, or perhaps already has, found that Peace that comes from knowing Him and having that intimate relationship with Him.
10 minutes at a time, that's my plan, or should I say His plan, for me to find His Shalom Peace!
AND JUST FOR FUN ..........
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