You reached out to me & reminded me that You miss me even more than i miss You!

WHAT A WEEK!  UP DOWN TURNAROUND KRAZY! 

I haven't written anything all week i don't think, and i've missed it!  even if no one reads this, i'm writing this more for me than anyone else.  after all was said & done this week, one thing really hit hard tonight.  i was sitting in my car, waiting in at wattaburger to get a sandwich & fries for one of our security guards.  2 of our security guards have been out sick this week and this poor guy was pulling a double shift.  So as i was leaving work i asked if he'd like me to make a coffee run for him, & he asked if i could get him a cheeseburger & fries.  Soooo, as i was sitting in line listening to KLOVE RADIO i realized just how long it had been since i'd really spent any quality time with God, Jesus & Holy Spirit.  i mean REAL quality time!  with no tv, no radio, just me praising & worshipping, as best i can with my untalented voice, & then just talking to Him & listening for His voice!  to be honest, i don't remember the last time i went to church (because i usually stay up too late saturday night & can't get my lazy hiney up Sunday morning!).  I miss Pastors Tom & Mary, i used to be able to really connect with God at church when they were there.  But Pastor Tom always said for us to be careful & not depend on them for our *connection* to God, but that we should be able to *connect* with God on our own.  I did pretty good for a long time after they retired, but i've somehow allowed myself to drift away from that precious time i used to spend with God.  and i've used plenty of excuses too!   I have to run errands, clean house, get busy & get ready for work, etc etc etc.   

Sitting there in the car listening to the radio, I remembered the joy & peace i used to find in spending time with Him, sometimes for no reason at all other than just to find that joy and peace & know that i was spending time with HIM, my best Friend, Saviour, Lover of my soul, my Creator, Protector, Provider, Healer, Comforter, Keeper of my secrets, Heavenly Father, Brother & Holy Spirit.  and these *titles* don't begin to explain the peace I find in His presence.  

So thank You God, for speaking to me tonight, even though i wasn't reaching out to You, You reached out to me & reminded me that You miss me even more than i miss You!  Thank You for loving me, not giving up on me and drawing me close, drawing me back to You!